days after dental surgery

felt the strings to the stitches done up in my mouth, near my wound... so afraid its coming off before it should i went back to the hospital on Wed, alone.. scary...

as wounds being stitched up, i couldnt move my mouth much, not to say open it wide... or even speak louder... the dentist had to force the small round mirror into my mouth, forcing its way through the teeth to see the strings... He seem so relax, telling me its normal... the ends are pointing upright was the main reason. I replied, im like biting on them whenever i close my jaws and when i swallow i can feel the pull... This was on the right side of my face. My left side was much much worst.. had bruises (blue-black) big patches on my face.. people at my work place ask if i had a fight?? beaten up by others?? some even make a joke out of it, saying did i exercise too much?? goodnesss... cant even like laugh coz the whole mouth hurts when i do so...

so where do i find the mood to eat... no appetite at all... only had cold milo when i need to take my medications, 2 capsules of antibiotic, 2 capsules painkiller, 1 gastric... other than that milo for breakfast and milo before sleep... eclipse in the mrt on my way to and off work, afraid that breath smells though the mouth rinse is finishing, and has to rinse often.. no proper meal on time, regular meal... didnt have any lunch, heading home for noodles soup... cut it real small to swallow straight... after medications and with shaking hands in the office...

finally its time to head home... yeah...

My dental appointment

scary.. was all that i can say... so scared, terrified to the extend of me fainting straight away wasnt impossible to happen at all...

appointment was set on Wed, 23 Jun. At 11.50am on 25 Jun to reach the hospital to get myself all ready for the op at 12.50pm was set in my head... i'll be put to sleep, GA for the extraction of 4 wisdom teeth. Scary... and then the staff nurse called me thurs noon to change the reporting time to 10.20am instead. So scared... Turn all pale... Sickening nurse...

the day of op, my hubby accompanied me there... what else can i do was like all that i think he can reply me with... watch me get pierce on the hand for the drip needle and changed to the op attire..

proceeded into the op theatre, told to lie down.. told to breathe the mask thingy... took awhile to fall asleep... felt numbness on my hand, heard the nurses say my hand will feel numb as the medications take effect, immediately i fell aslp.. no pain, cant hear the surrounding (grinding, sawing, drilling, cutting, stitching)... nurses wake me up... heard them telling me 'breathe clara, breathe.. take a deep breathe' heard nothing else... no beeping on the heartbeat, blood presure monitor, suddenly realise did i like almost give up breathing... saw scene of enen crying, poor girl i woke up.. visions wasnt clear but i so want to see her.. after awhile i fell aslp again...

the next time when they woke me up was to throw out to gauze in my mouth. soaked with blood... cant feel my mouth, lips, tongue nothing at all... then when its about 3pm i start to feel the pain, the swell.. goodness.. i look as if i had 2 half piece fishballs in my mouth on both sides. today and yesterday my face was all blue-black... As in a really big patch on my cheeks... really painful... Didnt take any food for like 3 days, only drinks... liquid diet... milo, milo and more milo...

i manage to open my mouth bigger nowadays so i saw the strings that are used to stitch the wound up for the R/H side, as for the left its still swollen as ever... blue-black as big patch as ever... voice is even softer than ever...

i wonder people in the mrt must be wondering such a pretty girl, did she like fight?? bitten up?? or did she exercise too much with her mouth?? haha... now im recovering, i hope my sister could hold on, listen to people's advice.. bringing her child to this world... she actually nearly lost the baby.. but i just had my op, my mum didnt wan me to worry so didnt mention anything to me till after which... I pray for the baby and for you, sis but u need to look after yourself, your child too!

In love again...

So good to fall in love again...
Hasnt had the feeling of falling in love for so long... Everything taste sweet when one is in love... even the air one breathe, food you eat, drinks you drink, words you speak, even you look sweeter than ever.. there seems to be 'you' in every breathe one takes, every next breathe you'll there...

i think that's the reason why when one is out of love, when pieces dont fit in anymore, when one dont wanna love one, one will even think of attempting suicide coz there's no more you in the air one breathe.. crying your heart out... blaming.., 'sorry's.., no scent of you, everything became tasteless... days without food didnt matter to you at all... When one will think of all kinda excuses, etc and etc...

Like,
when one use to love one, ....
when one use to want one, ...
although one never had the real answer, that one never showed intentions to leave.. 
now one is keeping away, leaving one...
Just when one began couting on one,
when one began to feel there's someone one can turn to for all,
now one is keeping away, leaving one...

People being strong will say stuff like, 
Dont deny destiny, go for it.. It might be the best for you,
dont remember me, move on..
im not meant for you...
there's no use in trying...

but deep inside, one must be thinking about stuff like...
i regret for not giving you the real answer all that while..
letting you choose someone else
'i love you' was all that one can say...

the hurt and damage one has caused will never be known to the other one... its kept in the heart, deep deep inside... how much was said, how much one felt for the other... one never knew how much and what memories there are, how much was there in other one... one can only keep guessing for one... there's so much one wanna tell or say but how to put it across...

distance is not a big factor... trust and feelings are... really... if one is far and no love was felt, so be it... let it be... if trust and feelings are there and distance is there, take a step... there's many steps to reach someone far but it wouldnt hurt.. its just trying...

Knitting Grp Gathering

Knitting group gathering... But without Lynn... it was jut me, pin, elsie and teacher. Was Teacher Yeo's b'day day... Brought her to this rest. for dinner... and we got her a wallet... hope she like it lo... 

 My fair lady... me so fair compare to teacher in the picture... hahah...

2 vain girls fancy taking pictures in toilets... hahaha....

Sleepy teacher...

Our foods and deserts...

With tooth-aching yet i took this for dinner... hehehe...

My Sister's Big Day, Wedding...

Was my sister's big day... Looking forward... All ready... I had a picture with me touching her tummy.. I hope the baby knows we sayang sayang him alot...

My Enen and her lil uncle.. My enen looks like mix blood.. hahaha...

Cousins and Clarice... Me & Clarice... She servd me tea coz im regarded a elder to her... Heeeeheee... Bro-in-law and Clarice...  Last minute plans that i follow my sis to help her at the hotel and let her rest... Of course... I just realise her husband's friend, one of them (brothers team) la... Was actually my secondary schoolmate.. Haha... Couldnt remember his name but he could actually recognise me and address me by my nam straight away la... Hehehe... i tink my teeth (bunny) teeth is outstanding enough thou... I dont need to be pretty or break some kinda records and thats how ppl remember 'Clara' i guesss.....

Proceeding to the dinner.. Preparations in the hotel room... Make-up and hair-do... Then its soleminisation.. and we were busy taking pictures... hehehe... me and my hubby... i simply like the tie he's wearing... i bought it straight the moment i saw it... Die Die dont let go or someone else with that same liking of mine might just snatch it away... hahah... was telling him like years back to wear this tie to a meeting with a plain white shirt, smart and nice but he simply didnt bother listening or dunno wad he was thinking.. he just didnt use it at all for years its been in the wardrobe... doesnt seem to stand out from the rest of the other tie... He tie and his attire i think matches me thou...  Im pink ... Heehee....

My father's side cousin and me... Again i think my teeth like stands out from anything else... hahaha...

 Mee and mummy...

Me and aunt... i guess i look alike with some of my aunties la....

Me and Sheena... Cousins... I think our family females have big 2 front teeth.. Thou some doesnt really bulge out like mine does but its really big lo... Hahaha.... Get a feel of the wind... Was good...

Happy B'day Dar!!!!!

Made reservations at AKASHABU... 1st time there, Dar said he wanna trry something different when i said to go to AKASHI...

Our menu for the day...

Pork Belly... Jap style

Family Outing 2 '2010 - Genting Highlands

Our family outing was held like just 2 weeks after the first one... think it'll be a long time the next one will be coming up...  EnEn love the luggage grand-mummy gave her... she helps us by pulling, holding and carrying her own luggage... My father took like only 4hrs at most to reach the hotel room itself. We reached S'pore Tuas checkpoint like 10pm and we reached Genting, Resort Hotel at 1am.

The stupidest thing that i have done there was like taking a deep breathe when i got off the vehicle. Temp and air difference from wad we have in S'pore has left me breathless... goodness... am already having small cough and then te next moment i was having difficulty breathing yet didnt wanna bother much about it till Day 1 morning that i start to feel the wheezing sound coming so i decided to use the inhaler... Hahah...

 my sis and bro-in-law...

Our foods....

 Penang Prawn Mee... M'sia style...

Ah Yat Abalone Rest...

mee and my favourite bird nest eye tarts... now their standard drop alr... not as nice...

me and xiao mei, Clarin...